~Kari’s POV~
I ran out of the house. I continued to run faster and faster without stopping. I leaped over a fence and continued to run. Without noticing, I had found myself at her grave. I knelt down and began to talk to her.
“M-mom,” I stuttered, “I miss you so much. Please tell me that Tony isn’t right! Tell me that’s not why you left! If it is, I’m so sorry. I could’ve taken care of you longer or dropped out of school to help. If that’s why, please take me with you! I don’t want to be here anymore knowing it’s all my fault! God, why would you stop me from dying when I tried? I was so close. I’ll just have to try again….” my crying became even harder and uncontrollable. I heard a leaf crunch behind me. I turned around to see Tony staring at me with wide, regretful eyes.
“I’m so sorry…” he said trying to come closer.
“Get away!” I yelled. He continued to walk towards me and I stood up. “I said go away!” he slowly came closer and tried to hug me. My hands turned to fists and I began to pound on his chest. I was too weak from all the crying to fight him. He held me tightly in his arms as I grabbed a handful of his shirt and cried hysterically into his neck. He began to stroke my hair and ‘shhh’ me trying to calm me down. I finally calmed down and regained a little bit of strength. I pushed him away and stood in front of him.
“Is-is it true?” he stuttered, “Did you really try to die?” I looked at the floor without answering. I didn’t want him knowing all these things about me.
“I’d rather not talk about it.”
“Ok, I understand. We should probably go home now. It looks like it’s going to rain.” I nodded and we walked to the car. We drove to the house in complete silence. Once we arrived, I got out of the car and headed straight for my room. I sat there for a bit with a completely numb mind. I heard the door downstairs open. Seconds later, I saw my dad running up the stairs and into his room. I got up to see what was going on.
I went in his room, “Dad, what’s going on?”
“I got a call that my uncle Manuel is sick. I’m going to see him.” He said as he took out a suit case and began to hurriedly throw clothes in it.
“Oh. I didn’t know you had an Uncle Manuel.”
“Well yea there is a big part of my family you haven’t met yet.”
“Oh. Well call me and let me know how things are going.”
“I will,” just then, Tony walked in the room, “Tony, while I’m gone, you’re in charge. Bye.” He said as he kissed my forehead and headed downstairs. I heard the front door close and moments later, a car turning on and leaving. I walked back to my room, leaving Tony alone. I sat there for a bit remembering every bit of detail of what had happened earlier. I became sad again and fought the tears. Right when I thought I was about to burst and couldn’t hold them any longer, I heard soft music coming nearby. I looked up to see Tony walking into my room while playing his guitar.
He took a seat next to me on the floor and began to sing:
“Self medicate
While they sleep, we let the night chase
Evil things away
And we're like animals homesick from shows
We gotta kill everything before the night gets wasted
Maybe it seems so strange
But we don't even stress at all
'Cause we've got poisons in our lungs...
Come at me with everything you've got.
Burst into flames, scream in the dark
I'm gonna light up this place
And die in beautiful stars tonight
Does it even make a difference?
When I'm sober, I feel pain
'Cause we run under the stars through cemetery backyards,
Celebrate the way the night hides scars.”
I laughed a bit at the irony. “You have a nice voice.” I said when he was done singing.
“Thanks. I wrote the song myself.”
“A bit ironic don’t you think?” we both laughed a little.
“So what you want to do now?” he asked looking over to me.
I thought for a moment, “You want to go to the park?”
“What if it starts raining on us though?” he whined.
“So what? I like the rain.”