Cuts And Bruises Won't Make Me Love You Less
This May Turn Into A Disaster
I arrived at the house in the afternoon. It seemed as though my mum had gone all out on this one. Maybe we would be staying here a little longer this time.
The stonewalled house was bigger than all the other houses we had lived at - one upside to the move my mum forcing me to go with her. The downside? Making new friends.
At my old house I had just gotten myself to fit in. In itself it was a miracle that I had any friends at all in my previous school. With me entering late there were all sorts of rumours going around about me. None of which were actually even true, and all of which didn't help my anxiety problems that I had. But during the months it had all died down and new rumours about other new students crept up.
Now I was coming back to stage one.
I dragged my bags out of the boot of the car and took the keys off my mum to open the door to my new "home". It turned out, the house was just as nice inside as it was outside. The hallway was massive and floored with laminate.
Well if everything else fails, at least I'll have a nice home to panic in!
I rushed upstairs to go and claim the biggest room.
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A few hours later I had my room just about sorted. I had put up fairylights at the back of my bed and hung poster on my walls, and was just about finished filling my drawers with clothes.
I was absolutely dreading Monday. My heart was on a constant sprint and I felt like I was going to be sick. It was crap, the anxiety of doing simple things. Technically all I had to do tomorrow was go unnoticed, but it still felt like I was trying to push a square boulder over with my bare hands.
"Jade!" My mum called from downstairs. "There's someone at the door!"
What the fuck? Who the hell would be here asking for me? My hands started to get clammy as I dashed down the carpeted stairs.
I looked at my mum and mouthed 'Who is it?' to which she mouthed back 'A neighbour, I think,' and shrugged before she walked into the kitchen leaving the door open.
When I peeked to see who it was, I was greeted my a huge smile.
"Hey," He started. "I'm Tony! I was just coming by to tell you that we're going to the same school and ask you if you wanted a lift in the morning?"
"Umm," I squeezed my thumb nervously behind my back. "Th-that would be great, thanks." I finally got my brain to work how to smile. "I'm Jade." He nodded in comprehension.
"So, be ready by 8:30. And you'll get to meet the rest of the guys," The rest of them? Oh, crap. What was I getting myself into? "Okay?"
"Um, yeah! Sure. But why did you come over here just to ask me if I needed a lift?" Shit, did that sound hostile? "I-I only ask because it just seemed kind of weird-" Don't call him weird! "I m-mean, unusual for someone to do that. Not that I'm calling you unusual or anything-" Stop talking, Jade. "But I've only just moved here, like, today and you barely even know me-" Stop talking, Jade!
The poor guy outside the door stood with an amused look on his face. Having just listened to my nervous blabber, I expected him to withdraw his invitation. Instead however he explained, "I was out on the lawn when you were driving down the street and you looked my age so I thought I would be friendly and come to ask you."
"Oh, Well, umm, thanks," My head was pounding. "I'll be ready by 8:30."
He smiled and waved a little as he walked out of the drive.
I hoped that his friends would be as chill as him. Or else me and my vocal diarrhea would be in a lot of trouble.
The stonewalled house was bigger than all the other houses we had lived at - one upside to the move my mum forcing me to go with her. The downside? Making new friends.
At my old house I had just gotten myself to fit in. In itself it was a miracle that I had any friends at all in my previous school. With me entering late there were all sorts of rumours going around about me. None of which were actually even true, and all of which didn't help my anxiety problems that I had. But during the months it had all died down and new rumours about other new students crept up.
Now I was coming back to stage one.
I dragged my bags out of the boot of the car and took the keys off my mum to open the door to my new "home". It turned out, the house was just as nice inside as it was outside. The hallway was massive and floored with laminate.
Well if everything else fails, at least I'll have a nice home to panic in!
I rushed upstairs to go and claim the biggest room.
_______________________________________________________________________________________
A few hours later I had my room just about sorted. I had put up fairylights at the back of my bed and hung poster on my walls, and was just about finished filling my drawers with clothes.
I was absolutely dreading Monday. My heart was on a constant sprint and I felt like I was going to be sick. It was crap, the anxiety of doing simple things. Technically all I had to do tomorrow was go unnoticed, but it still felt like I was trying to push a square boulder over with my bare hands.
"Jade!" My mum called from downstairs. "There's someone at the door!"
What the fuck? Who the hell would be here asking for me? My hands started to get clammy as I dashed down the carpeted stairs.
I looked at my mum and mouthed 'Who is it?' to which she mouthed back 'A neighbour, I think,' and shrugged before she walked into the kitchen leaving the door open.
When I peeked to see who it was, I was greeted my a huge smile.
"Hey," He started. "I'm Tony! I was just coming by to tell you that we're going to the same school and ask you if you wanted a lift in the morning?"
"Umm," I squeezed my thumb nervously behind my back. "Th-that would be great, thanks." I finally got my brain to work how to smile. "I'm Jade." He nodded in comprehension.
"So, be ready by 8:30. And you'll get to meet the rest of the guys," The rest of them? Oh, crap. What was I getting myself into? "Okay?"
"Um, yeah! Sure. But why did you come over here just to ask me if I needed a lift?" Shit, did that sound hostile? "I-I only ask because it just seemed kind of weird-" Don't call him weird! "I m-mean, unusual for someone to do that. Not that I'm calling you unusual or anything-" Stop talking, Jade. "But I've only just moved here, like, today and you barely even know me-" Stop talking, Jade!
The poor guy outside the door stood with an amused look on his face. Having just listened to my nervous blabber, I expected him to withdraw his invitation. Instead however he explained, "I was out on the lawn when you were driving down the street and you looked my age so I thought I would be friendly and come to ask you."
"Oh, Well, umm, thanks," My head was pounding. "I'll be ready by 8:30."
He smiled and waved a little as he walked out of the drive.
I hoped that his friends would be as chill as him. Or else me and my vocal diarrhea would be in a lot of trouble.
Ugghhh, I know it's been like a year, but please update, it hurts. XD
12/27/14