Another You
its like im drowning from within
''Whatcha going to get?" He asked sweetly and i look at the menu. 'nope 50 cal, nope 100 cal.' my voice seethed and i shook my head.
''I don't know, i am not really that hungry.'' i said and i keep looking but nothing really seems appealing. i mean nothing ever really does but come on, something must look good and be good.
"Hi, how can i help you?" The man asks looking at me and winking. I dismiss it like i didn't see it and look.
''Umm i'll have the turkey sub.'' i said and he nodded. ''And i will have a meatball sandwitch.'' Austin cuts in with a spotlight smile.
''Okay your total is 8.90.'' the cashier said rudely and i pull out my wallet i had to see Austin paying for me.
''Austin, i can pay for myself.'' i complained and he shook his head. ''My mother always taught me to pay on the date.'' he said happily.
''I have a question.'' i said and we picked a table to sit at by the window. ''sure shoot.'' he said with a smile and i take a deep breath.
''How did you handle it. your mom.'' i said and he smiled at me but i saw his eyes sadden. ''I just had time and music. I let people help me and i just.. i wouldn't say rolled through it, but it is a lot easier to have people help you through than it is to shut people out.'' he explained.
''Order 42.'' i heard and i got up to get it. I picked up a water cup and got Austin and i water. ''Thanks. so did you lose your mom? or dad?" he asked lightly and i take a sip of water and look down.
''Both. Car crash.'' i said and take a small bite of my fatty sandwich. ''Oh im sorry.'' he said and i shake it off. ''It's fine, it happened when i was 12.'' i said and he looked down.
''Soo, there is a contest for the music video for another you. you basically lived out what i went through, but you don't have too if you don't want to.'' he said quickly.
''Yeah i heard on Octane.'' i said nicely and he smiled.
''so do you wanna do it?" He asks and i think. ''Would it be fair for the people who really entered?" I asked and he looks down,
''no, but i think you are qualified to do so.'' he said and i think again. ''Let me think okay?"I said and he nodded.
''soo, how long have you been modeling?" He asked on a lighter note. ''since i was 10. my mom loved it and she got me into it. but i don't think i wanna do it anymore.'' i said truthfully. Keeping up with your wieght, calories and everything is tiring.
''oh, just not interested?" he questions and i nod. ''SO what do you wanna do?" He asks and i think.
''Well, i already finished collage and i wanna either produce music or make it.'' i said and he looked excited. ''Or take up photography or like design shirts.'' i said, confused by my own wants.
''Ugh, i don't know. I have enough money to get me through the rest of my life perfecty fine.'' i added and i take another small bite. Finding it really hard to swallow it.
''wow, you know i could help you out with that.'' he said truthfully and i looked at him. Why would he want to help me?
''With what?" I Asked him and he shrugged. ''I know a dude who is looking for new photographers to come on warped with us. I could recommend you if you think you are good.'' he said, taking a monstrous bite. I look underneath the table and at his legs.
''so skinny.'' i whisper to myself. i wonder why he is so skinny and eats so much.
''huh?" He questions with a mouthful of pasta and bread. I raise my eyebrows and laugh. He shakes his head and chews and swallows.
'no seriously what did you say?" he questions. ''I was just thinking that if i was any good at photography, why would i go on tour?" I lied and he seemed to buy it.
''well, its fun. Alcohol, some drugs, new friends, it's a fun experience anyway. I will be there this year. You could bunk with us.'' he said and i looked at him. Then it hit me.
''Is the guy you are talking about Adam Elmkias?" I asked because i look up to him ever since i found out about bands.
''yeah he is. You know of him?" He questions and i nod. "been looking up to him ever since i was into bands.'' i said and take another small bite. i don't wan Austin knowing what is wrong with me.
''So, want me to look at your work?" He asked and i pull out my phone and open my file of pictures i took with my camera.
Sometimes i would stay with the crew to just hang out and i would have them model for me and i would take their pictures. It was fun, just goofing off.
I hand over my phone and he looks at them with astonishment. ''did you paint this?" He asks showing me a random picture of one of my workers.
''haha no, it was the filter i use.'' i said and he nodded.
I looked at his plate and he was done. Me on the other hand, i had eaten about 1/4 of it.
''well, i have to get going. Can i have your number for Adam? And well for me too?" he asks and i pull up the contact section and he enters it.
''seee you soon Evolett.'' he said and we went out seperate ways.
@BeccaBoo
thank you haha, im updating right now
3/5/15